AlfaTrion's Domain

Ok, here I am again… I feel like such an idiot. I feel like I won a lottery but then blew it all on partying and gambling, letting everyone down.

I don’t know what is wrong with me: The only time I feel emotional is when I lose something; My “rebellious” nature even fights against my logical side, which I thought was stronger; Whatever my current obsession is, makes me lose track of my priorities while the next one pushes them further away; I’m always doing now instead of planning ahead.

I have to fix myself. I have to change. I have to be happy with myself before I can be happy with someone else.

I picked my self up from the dumps a couple of years ago. Went back to school, graduated with honours and got a great job. Now it’s time for the next step. I just have to do it. I am thankful I have great friends who can pick me up if I ever waiver off my path.